Aerobic Workout

Yep, I bought myself one of those workout videos. I waited until everyone left this morning, put on my tennis shoes and popped the video in. It really wasn't that bad until it got to high impact or low impact. I started off doing the high impact but a big woman jumping up and down in a mobile home just ain't the way to go. I swear anybody outside would have thought EARTHQUAKE!!!!! I got tired of my boobs slapping on my chest and the entertainment center moving so I decided to go to the low impact which involves no jumping around,problem solved. I made it through the entire thing no worse for wear so lets see how long I can keep it up. As for the eating part, I'm trying to cut back on my portions and make healthier choices.

The Fat Lady

I have come to a point in my life that needs to change. I am sick and tired of being a fat mommy,daughter and most of all wife. I have struggled with my weight since childhood and I have always conned myself into thinking I had time to do something about it later. Well, this is later and the time is now. I need help and I can't kid myself about it anymore. I am approaching a weight mark that I refuse to cross and clothing sizes that I am truly ashamed of. I can't blame it on the kids and my pregnancies anymore since I just sent my baby to 3 year old preschool. I also can't blame lack of time anymore either. It is time that mommy took some time for herself to try and loose some of this weight. I am tired of being tired and wore out. I need more energy and I also need to feel better about myself. Plus, what kind of example am I setting for my kids? I never want them to feel about themselves the way I feel about myself right now. I have been lazy and always taking the easy way out by eating exactly what I wanted. I turned 30 this year and I will have my 10th anniversary soon so this is a big year for me. I need and want a change and though I know it will not be easy, I have got to try. I started this morning by taking a short walk before I sent the kids to school. It was a short walk, only to the end of the street and back but it was a start and for me that little step was a big one. I need to make little changes at first so I don't get discouraged and I need to throw the scale in the garbage. It only makes things worse when I don't see the numbers dropping. A whole lifestyle change needs to happen and that doesn't happen overnight. I have got to start eating healthier and eating smaller portions as well as adding exercise. I also can't kid myself and never have another bite of cake,chocolate or ice cream but make myself realize that a little bite will do. Also, I need to write more in this journal, just for myself. I can't keep thinking about the people that will read this and just write for myself alone. I need something to keep me accountable and maybe writing in here will do just that. I won't write my starting weight because right now, I am just too ashamed to see the number in print so for now, I'll just write about the positive choices I have made for the day.

Leah on her 1st day of 3 year old preschool 

Adam on his 1st day of 4 year old preschool 

Paul- 1st day of 1st Grade 

We're Home!!!

With all 3 kids, a crap load of stuff we bought and enough dirty laundry to keep me busy for the next 3 days. All in all it was a great trip. The kids behaved themselves and nobody drove us crazy. I'm exhausted and have pretty much spent all day lazing around and washing a few clothes. I swear I don't want to get in another vehicle for any length of time for a LONG time. Thursday we drove 14 hours and by the time we got to our motel room in GA, I just about couldn't move. I'm glad to be home but sad at the same time because we really had a great time. I'll post more later with some pics.

Am I cute or what? 

Look out Modeling World, here I come!!! 

Who are you Looking at? 

Paul and Adam Posing For A Picture 

Maybe This Summer Thing Isn't So Bad

Cause it is 9:00 and guess where my kids are? STILL IN THE BED!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! I'm sitting here in peace and quiet surfing the web just cause I can. This staying up past 10:00 is great. Why did I ever send them to bed at 8:30? I need to get my big ole butt up and finish the few things I have to do before we go on vacation. Like take the dogs to the clinic for boarding,get extra cat food and bunny chow, go to the bank. Ya know, all the little things that have to be done before a long trip. What an extremely long trip this is going to be. We did find something out yesterday, the kids don't make a peep when the DVD player is going. Thank God for modern technology! On the hour drive to and from Kenny's grandmas house last night, there was no hitting,pinching,yelling or screaming and they were sitting all squished up on the back seat together! Maybe, just maybe this trip is not going to be so bad. I'll let you know when I get back or maybe post in during the trip if I can con my hubby's laptop away from him. Yeah right. Ever heard that phrase "pry it out of my cold dead fingers"? He hates for me to even look at the thing and swears I mess it up every time I touch it. Well, in the words of some famous movie quotes, "Hasta la vista baby!" and "I'll be back" . Chow for now dudes!

Big Fat Meanie

Or at least what my 6 year old thinks of me. Paul and I have had this love,hate relationship for the past few months. I love him but hate some of the things he says and does. Nothing I do for him is good enough. Here lately his favorite phrase is ,"You never let me do anything!". WHAT! This weekend he got mad at me and drew a picture of me with the words Big Fat Meanie underneath the drawing. Let me say that the drawing was not flattering at all. This is the same kid that I took swimming and played outside with but I never let him do anything. Go figure. He doesn't talk to his daddy this way or certainly not where he can hear him. Well, I hear the kids are up. Guess the Big Fat Meanie needs to go start breakfast.