Scary

Tonight at the ball park I was as scared as I have ever been in my life. I was absolutely hysterical and I NEVER want to feel that way again. We were sitting in the bleachers watching Paul's game when I realized Leah was not sitting beside me. I immediately jump up and start calling her name. No Leah. I start searching one way and Kenny takes the other. I run frantically calling her name and staring at each child I see hoping to catch a glimpse of her. I see Kenny and still no Leah and by this time several minutes have passed. My heart is pounding and tears fill my eyes as I envision someone snatching her. My heart breaks at the thought of never seeing her again and I am afraid. I catch sight of another mom I know and ask her has she seen Leah. We both start to look around and I see her! She is just walking around as if nothing has happened. I run to her, drop to my knees, bury my face in her shoulder and cry. She has no idea what she has done and is upset to see me cry. She tells me that she just went to put something in the trash and all I could think of is horror stories of children being murdered. I feel like such an idiot for even taking my eyes off her for a second and I realize the guilt a kidnapped child's parent must feel. Leah got past 4 adults before we even realized she was gone. Lesson learned, I will put her in a stroller or put her on a kiddie leash next week. She'll be stuck to me like glue til she's forty.